Gavin will be four weeks on Friday. I can hardly believe it. He is teaching me a lot and I am slowly learning what he needs from me. I have also learned that getting stuff done around the house is harder than I thought. The whole day goes by and I wonder what I have to show for it. Hopefully other moms have had the same question. I guess a whole lot of baby loving and holding accounts for something. This past week he has been up a ton and wants to be held just as much. Just when I think I can put him down for a second, he thinks otherwise. So I'm just enjoying that. We watch a lot of TLC, Food Network, and HGTV together. Taking naps together is my favorite - even if when we're done our clothes are sweaty and stuck to each other. It's funny how I can stay up all night with him and still be just as happy and excited to see him in the morning. That must be a mom thing, too.
My life is totally different than it was before. I've spent the last seven years working and staying busy (in other ways) and the transition to home life has been quite a shift for me. I know that I want to be at home taking care of this baby - but it's been quiet and sometimes even lonely. That's not a sad thing - just a reality that I'm learning to adjust to. I'm getting more used to it every day.
My mom came on Sunday and just left today. I cried. Brian has been out of town this week so it was very nice to not be alone and have some company. Also, my house is the cleanest it has ever been. She truly is a saint - she cleaned things that have never been touched by human hands. (Well, not my hands anyway.) She made me feel more empowered and I know that I can do this. Brian will be home Friday afternoon, so we'll see how Gavin and I turn out then.
We had his naken newborn pictures taken last week - so I'll post those next. It's hard for me to keep up on this since I don't have daily access to the internet anymore unless I make a drive to the library, which doesn't always happen. So, until then, enjoy this sweet face!
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He is so sweet! It makes me wish I lived close enough to drive over and hold him.
I totally know what you mean about the being at home. It was weird for me also!
Hey homeslice. Loved your blog - he is a doll. It's true! My blog got deleted due to the wrong e-mail address. I'll start another one soon. See you soon. ML
Natalie -
I love reading your blog because my youngest sister is only 2 days behind you with her first baby as well - coming out of 7 years of career as well and you are verbalizing everything that I know she's thinking and experiencing. It's great to read and gives me some insight into what she might be going through. I relate totally to everything you write about - especially with your first. After that you will not be able to just sit and hold the new baby - you'll be forced to use a swing, or a bouncer, or whatever will keep it happy while you chase your two year old around the house. So enjoy it while you can baby. It all ends way too fast.
By the way - the house will get cleaned again, the laundry will get done again, you will go back to YW again -it all happens in good time - I always give myself 4 months to get back to a "schedule" again. Don't be too down on that.
I miss ya girl! I love these pictures!
And for heavens sake, get internet - and kiss lonely goodbye!
You verbalized well the transition of being "busy" at home versus "busy" else where. You will truly cherish those days just holding your baby. They grow quickly and become more and more fun each and every day. Isn't it funny how much motherhood can change a person?
I'm counting down the days until I get to see him (and you)! He is just the cutest little guy. Makes me really excited for our boy to get here!!
he is just darling. you are totally right about the transition. you are handling it better than i did. keep enjoying your sweet infant. before you know it he will have figured out how to climb on your end table and pull on your curtains. or at least that is my monkeys newest trick.
I have been waiting for a new post for awhile now. It makes since that you haven't posted in awhile if you don't have the internet. He is growing and looking so cute. After I read your email it makes me more baby hungry than ever. I long for the time when I can just hold my new little baby and worry about nothing else. My feelings might change after I have a child of my own but that is what I want most right now!
Oh, Natalie, you're doing perfect! Don't let everything get you down... it is such a huge, shocking change, but worth every second. I still have days when I wish I could do everything, but deep down I know more than anything I want to be with my babies. Don't worry, it'll all come together in time. Enjoy each moment you have to snuggle with him now, because pretty soon he'll be too busy to snuggle back. Then you'll have time to clean your house (in between his messes, of course)!!
He is a cutie pie. It was a hard adjustment for me to be home all day at first. I was lonely cause there wasn't anyone to talk to (well that could talk back and hold a conversation). But it's great you can stay home with him and enjoy him. They get big so fast. Also, he'll get bigger and you can start going on some outing with friends and stuff.
haha...i think we feel the same way about things. i wonder how i can stay up all night and still be so excited to see the boy so early in the morning. also, i also felt lonely at my quiet house...that's why i moved in with my mom and dad while jason is in alaska for the summer. gavin is so cute!
I cried when my mom left too. And I definitly had those feelings (and still do somedays) of "what am I doing with my life??"...and then I remember (somedays faster than others) "oh yeah, two wonderful little boys". Enjoy these next couple months and your baby is beautiful! I especially like his hair, so cute.
He is SOOO beautiful! I hope you don't mind that I found your blog! Hope all is well!
He's so precious!!! Seriously Nat, what a cute boy!! Mom visits are the best. My parents are coming to visit us in a couple of weeks and I'm very much looking forward to having a clean house. It's so fun to read your thoughts and feelings on becoming a mother. Take care.
Oh, Nat. He is so beautiful. You can tell him I said so when he's about 15! He really is though...I love all these little people we've been blessed to be mommies to, after spending all those years with other people's kids--equally important, but not quite the same as being the mom.
Your thoughts on mothering are dead on. The reassurance I can offer is that even though each day sometimes seems long and you don't have much to show for it, the years are flying by and there is much to show for that. Just the other day Patrick said the store was "closed mom, it's not open today" and I realized that he's learned about opposites, just by living. There's so much day to day learning that happens without you even realizing it.
And I have to echo the sentiments about how fast these snuggly early days end. I am cherishing little Kennedy's early months far more than I knew to last time around. They grow way faster than you think possible and you can never get these days back, especially the early days with your first.
He is so cute and I love his hair! You sound like you're doing great- those first weeks are so hard but I can almost promise in another 4 weeks you'll be feeling surprisingly normal. I remember wishing I could just go sit at my desk and do office work instead of cleaning my house! (actually, I still think that a lot!)
congrats guys! He is such a handsome little guy. Those pictures are so precious! We have his little picture on our fridge and I admire it each time I see it.
I can definitely relate to how you're feeling Natalie.:) You're always trying to figure out what's going to make him most happy and comfortable. It seems to get easier and easier though. They change so quickly too, so it's fun to just enjoy each stage. I'm sure you're a fantastic little mommy.
We can't wait to see you guys!
Hey Nat! I found you blog hopping and it's great to see what you're up to! Congrats on the new little guy, he's adorable! We just had our 1st too in Jan. They just get better & better!
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