Yesterday I lost it. Completely. I was tired. I was over-committed. I was snippy. I was downright mean. Nothing major even happened except that, as usual, I got started on too many things and then got irritated when things weren't going smoothly and little fingers were trying to help me. Note to self: making dinner and sugar cookies and holding a crying baby and entertaining Gavin are not good things to do all at the same time. All good things - just not all at once. I find myself in a good, great, productive place about every third day. On the others I'm just scrambling. How's that for being human?
I vowed today would be better. Talk softly. Be patient. Just get the kitchen back in working order (since that was the LAST STRAW yesterday) and love on the boys. Period. Such a better feeling around here. Turns out when I'm calm the kids are calm. Hmm. I think it's true that I control the weather - I can hurt or heal. Why am I always the last one to figure these things out or take 100 lessons to learn it?
4 comments:
You're not the only one but I like when people are "honest" on their blogs - makes me feel more normal to know that I'm not alone!
I had a total, complete, abyssmal meltdown yesterday too. And that was with (because of?) my husband being home! Columbus Day, Schmolumbus Day! We had to hit the reset button today as well.
"I control the weather." Love that. Well, I hate that it's true, but it is well put.
I know what you mean about things seeming to be perfect. I always think I'm completely me in my blog - just say it like it is, but once somebody that reads my blog commented that my life seems perfect and I seriously laughed out loud. It's a little revealing to hear that when I think I'm being completely upfront about my life, only to hear from someone else's perspective how warped it reads. Anyway - don't know the answer to that one - but I will say you're learning valuable lessons early on girl. BTW I think you're an awesome mom. I'm a believer that meltdowns are good for kids to see (once-in-a-while). As long as they see you come out of it, it helps them realize that you're human and have your limits too - plus it teaches them that you can go from crazed to normal again - life isn't perfect, you know? And you have to learn how to work with it anyway. They might as well learn that at home. Just my .02
I'll just tell ya right now...were rowing in the same boat sister!
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